60 Days of Self-Dating

You can’t give away something you don’t have until you have true love for yourself, you’ll likely not able to give this type of love to someone else. And that’s why I embarked upon my journey of self-dating. I picked 60 days because they say it takes 21 days to make a habit, 30 days for that habit to become a routine, and 60 days to make that routine a lifestyle. 

So what is self-dating? Self-dating is about shedding the layers and the masks that you have put on for all the different roles you play in your life leading up to this present moment, because the person you are at your core is someone the world has tricked you into believing is wrong of you to be. Self-dating is about getting back to your authentic self. This notion of dating yourself is not an easy journey. If you’re truly dating yourself with the same vigor and tenacity that you would someone you’re interested in romantically, you’re going to find parts of yourself that you may not necessarily like. And unlike a dating scenario where you can break up with the person because of such character flaws or “defects”,  you’re not able to break up with yourself, period. Your relationship with yourself is the one that is guaranteed to last this lifetime. 

This discovery of dating yourself is not about drawing yourself lavender epsom salt baths every night, and treating yourself to pedicures, or taking yourself out for extravagant dinners and buying yourself the expensive outfit. While those are definitely the icing on the cake activities per say, they’re not the entire dessert. Self-dating is about taking the time to be with just yourself, no one else, and truly dedicating chunks of time for you to rediscover you. 

The most powerful revelation that I had at about day 30 of my 60 day journey was an idea to do a gratitude inventory; an inventory of all of the beautiful things I was grateful to have had in my life starting from being born, leading all the way up to the present moment of sitting at the lake one Saturday afternoon doing this list. And what was interesting is right around the time I was getting to things that occurred in my life around the age of 15 I hit a wall. It became heavy and difficult to write things I was grateful for.

Whereas from early childhood through adolescence and my early teenage years my pen flew. I couldn’t write fast enough. All of the memories and all of the treasures I was recounting just poured out of me. I realized that when my pen became heavy and I couldn’t write as free-flowing it was because that’s when ego had taken over. That’s when I stopped feeling safe to be who I truly was and I started being who the world demanded me to be. Who I should succumb to. My inner child, if you will, was banished to the corner, and would not be allowed out for years to come.

I am not writing this from the perspective of having any formalized training or having a very expensive piece of paper that tells me about human behavior.

I am writing this from my own experiences as a woman whom has lived through fright, terror, remorse and guilt. And also as a woman who has lived through light and love and beauty. I can now see how all of this formed and shaped me into the person that is able to put pen to paper and provide this insight and way of self-discovery and healing to you the reader. I am merely a student of my own life who has had experiences and simply wants to share them as a means of shining light into the dark corners of our world. And maybe you’re in that dark corner, and maybe this article is some light helping you to come out. And if it is, I am so happy you found these words. More to be revealed. Stay tuned.

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    1. Thank you Diane! At Attract Magazine we want to give you insight on how to be the best version of you! Stay tuned!

  1. I love this and I think we should all do it. We get lost in daily activity and doing what must be done and I think when we are living in this mode, over time, we forget the core of who we are! I want to be part of a journey like this!

    1. Hi Cyndi!
      We definitely agree Cyndi. Thank you for sharing! Self love is so important. We forget that we come first before anything.

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